Doubt

I doubt myself everyday when I try and figure out the true mystery of who you really are. Sometimes I tell myself no I am going crazy then it happens again. As the days go by I start to doubt and wonder will I ever really get to be with you.

Then it happens again with a blink of the eye. I see you again are I get a notification.

When will this all end and when will we both can feel comfortable into being true to ourselves.

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Getting off Depo Provera! Life After

I was on Depo for only three months and the damage it caused. Let me tell you in the past I nevered really went through the side effects as I did in 2013!
I went from 140 to almost 200 pounds! I am still fighting the after effects of the Depo Provera. I promise you if I would have known better I have not would have got on this shot.

Sometimes I feel like crying and hiding when I look at my body. I bloat all the time. I work out and try eating healthy as much as I can. Still doesn’t work, Depo is a poison something women really need to be aware and educated on.

I have lost weight and all but still not good enough I just want my body back. I feel better than what I use to feel Dont get me wrong but still. I can get better much better.

I survived Depo Provera but I am still fighting the side effects out my system!

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New direction

“My life is taking a new turn” blurted Diana ! I really don’t know where I am trying to go with this new journey ! But I can’t keep living this lie”

It was cold out that day as Diana and Laura were talking out in the city that day.

I bet your butt laughed” laura laughed loudly Seriously says Diana can you please just be serious with me for once ! I am about to lose my life husband ! Hell my maybe even my sanity! Ted is not going to be happy about this!

Just an idea for a story I am trying to write!

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Siblings

Just because you grow up with a person does not mean they know you. I heard my sisters husband call me slow today. How can you when you have no where to live. I Dont know karma is real they both Dont get it! When will they get the picture its not so much of everyone else being the problem but maybe they are the probelm!

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Negativity

How do you get out of a situation you have been dealing with for years. Yes I created a lot of burdens and mishapes but do I have to keep living in it.

Some people say family is good but I feel different. In order for me to succeed I have to do things I Dont want to do. When will I be able to be free from the negativity. When? I hope one day soon! I am working hard to get away from it.

People don’t want you to succeed are do good! Your family how I feel family can be your enemy!
I feel like that is the way for me! One day I will be free and hopefully real soon!

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Author’s

I adore my author’s I really do. When Facebook introduced me to them a couple of years ago I was so excited and amazed.

What’s the problems no problem but I feel being an author you have to have good customer service! Like any other business I feel being an author and getting your talent creative work out there people need to have good customer service. Some of the author’s I cherish I have now defend them I still follow them but get turned off with horrible customer service.

Your fan’s are inviting you into they life and it can be a bit dwelling when your customer service sucks!

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A bookstore

I love books and love to read. I actually surround myself with books around me.  When I was a teenager and in my twenty’s I would carry around in my purse.  Now that technology has came in my life,  I keep  in my phones.

Anywhere I see a novel I buy.  I purchase on my kindle and keep for safe keeping.  Read if the book captures my eyes.  I stick with and support the author, if not,  I want even look at the book again.

I purchased a domain,  and a website today. This is a good  start,  now where do I go with the idea.

A online bookstore hopefully in the near future. Hopefully I will be able to share with world great novels and author’s.

Stay tuned!

Reading to me is therapeutic, it soothes my mind. I have a Facebook with books everywhere an author here and there.

Coming from the mind of a introvert I assume.

Get prepared because one day I will be writing my books and having an online bookstore. These things just takes time in the end.

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Autism a mothers tears

At times I just Dont want to face reality. I have a child who is disabled and has autism. I know you have heard that word before autism.

My son is 10 years old was born with a heart condition Di George syndrome.

I never knew how the world would perceive my son. It broke my heart when he was first born fighting for his life. I never knew how a child could break your heart I learned that cold chilling day.

My son made it and I just didn’t want to let him go he spent four to six months in the hospital. I just wanted to be close to him that’s all.

I grew overprotected and soon locked everyone out my life that’s all I knew how.

My son is a blessing don’t get me wrong at times I want to give up and don’t even want to fight.

The world perceives a child with autism is something I never knew I would endure. Ever in my life but having a child with special needs I see that now and it is a shame.

I don’t have shame because he is not shame at all.

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Curiosity

Have you ever looked at a person and wonder Wow! How would it feel to be with that person. I have I guess it happened twice in my lifetime one with a guy in my hometown and another person same sex in another town.

The friendship was all innocent to me but one day. I was just looking at something on their website and got kind of curious!

I felt foolish so I ran way played it off this is a friend! How dare I have these kinds of feelings for them.

This person holds strength to me feminism but strength.

I ruined a relationship because I couldn’t handle my feelings for this person.

Curious to know who they really are, curious to know who are they and how fun it would be to be with them.

Curious to know how they sound and just how good they would be to be around.

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